I'm sitting here at the table with the sunrise peeking at me over the trees. It should be a beautiful morning for me but for some reason it's not. I caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror and I was quite shocked. I thought I was just getting through life and people see me as a nice person. I don't look like a nice person. My eyes are tired and mouth was frowning. I took a picture of myself to make sure I was seeing what I really saw. I'm not a happy person. I feel worn down. I've been moving sluggishly. I do a handful of sit ups (my version) every once in a while. As if I'm really trying. I make a change. I'm not doing anything, really. I'm not even fouling myself. I've gain about 20lbs since February. There's no justification for it. To tell you the truth, I love food but I don't enjoy eating.
I'm tired. I feel it throughout my body. I'm ready.
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