It's harder than it looks.  I started the Live below the line today.  I have absolutely everything that I need.  Thinking about everyone that has to lice on so little.  I was once there and made it by but this is different.  It's heartbreaking.  You see everyone.  Notice all the little looks from those who are hungry or don't have something that you have.  Its only 11;30 and I can't wait until lunch. Apple it is. But at least I can have something for dinner with the family that is a bit hardier. 

Time is too short with so many options.  I don't even feel as if I'm stuck but just wanting to try everything.  absolutely Everything.  Signing, CDF, CDFP, mom, wife, educator. Well, all moms are educators. I know what ever I do for now, my children know that it is so I can move forward to my dream. Dreams take time sometimes.  They are never lost just put on hold sometimes.

     It's just one of those days.  I have a million and one things on my mind and have no idea where to start.  I scanned the computer just doing my random checks for work, applications, travel costs, brushing up on my sign language.  Watching a Signing Time Video with my son which is always fun. For some reason I got on an IQ kick.  Just curious what mine was.   I never took one or anything like it.  It turns out that I have an IQ in the higher average area.  I'm not bothered by that at all.  I never thought of myself super smart or even of lower inelegance, just practical when need be.  Maybe one day when I'm 150 I'll qualify for  Mensa, but until then I will continue being me and see myself in a higher light than before.  I found a lot of puzzles and mazes that are awesome Krazy Dad's maze book are unique in my eye.  Fun for the kids and yes hard enough to hold an adults attention. Apparently he has done a lot of work in various fields and has been generous enough to generate these for personal or school use.
    

6mo. already

Wow. time flies so fast.  It didn't seem that long ago that I was riding my Pake fixie.  Yes, as crazy as it was, while pregnant. But with that said everything was fine with my little bun while i was doing it.  He's now 6mo. and getting around on his own.  He's definitely like his dad.  I'm trying to decide if I should get him  piano from Fisher Price like my other boys had or a Bear from Build A Bear that he can grow up with.  I always wanted to get a build a bear for the boys but life attacks opportunities  sometimes. 
     I also had to contact one of my favorite manufacturers today.  I noticed while scanning the store for something for my little one that I always seek them out.  They have been ever faithful as I have been and their products are ever evolving as product should.  Awesome designs and bright colors.  I love Munchkin baby products.  I've been a  mom for 15 years now and I have always had their products in our house.
     On a more common note.  My house is crazy right now.  My fiance and I are supposed to get married, so I went out and got clothes for the men in my life.  Ugh trying to find matching semi matching shirts and ties for all of them was a pain.  I ended up going with White button up shirts with solid colored ties.  Of course in our style.  All colors. Hot pink, red, black, white, and light blue.  My little guy is going to be the only one with a semi striped tie.  My guys are good guys but they're boys too.  Playing, jumping, horsing around and of course making a mess.  Thank goodness for my charts and rewards.  Until next time.  My little Baby Einstein and I are going to be watching our favorite video his brothers and I used to watch.  Signing Time. Awesome. Awesome. Awesome.

I just joined Live Below the Line.  My end goal is to not only bring awareness to this type of hunger but to bring a true reality to how people live in everyday life.  Most people don't know how it really is to live on such little money.  For the most part I do.  When first starting out on my own, making very little money and raising 4 kids. Most people though I was crazy and thought I had financial help.  I didn't and made everything work to the best that I could.  This is going to be even harder than that.  I now have a family of 7.  I'm not going to ask my family to do this with me but it will be a good example of how hard it's going to be and see others eating well and thriving and me myself working for the next meal..

Find the time

     Finding the time for ones self is not as easy and someone may think.  You have 20billion activities to do and that doesn't even include your real life chores and responsibilities.  5:30am wake up oldest son to only have to and get him up 20 minutes later. 7am wake up three more children and getting them fed, their chores done before getting them off to school.  Getting husband up fed and a little quiet time before getting him off to work.  This doesn't even include out baby that is up almost every hour from about midnight.  Poor baby is teething.  Being home isn't always fun. In fact it isn't, other than having my little one with me.  You have no time between; cleaning, washing clothes, dishes, nursing a teething baby, finding extra dirty clothes by smelling your way through the house.  If i have the time to do anything it's searching lists for potential jobs and looking for daycare for my son.  In which i may add my internal dislike regarding the cost vs. pay rate for jobs.  It amazes me how anyone can work with children on their own or without help.  A mom must work to pay for childcare alone.  I wonder how they eat at all.  Thank goodness for coupons i guess.  In reality, when all is said and done I love coupons, saving money and finding time to not only spend time with my boys but to find and spend time with my love too.  If somewhere in there I find a little time for myself that's cool.  But mostly my time is spent cooking and cooking with my kids.  The most fun is doing something with them that they would have never thought they would see you do.  Like go down a slide.  :)

Knitting Tradtions

Last night one of my little guys started hounding about knitting. I just learned and have been telling him that i need to learn first. I suggested before that he needs to finish croxheting his scarf first. Well i didn't know it but the little fuy finished it a few days ago :/ he picked it up waaaay to fast. I'm jealous. I didn't even get to spend 5min with him on his new scarf that he's now knitting and he had it down. I hope he finds it as relaxing as I do.
On the cooking side of things. It turns out that I have a neighbor that works for a food distributor. We got to chatting and she handed over some sample loot. SCORE!! It was nice to hear her say that she smells all the awesome food that I cook. That was so nice. Last night my fiance made Turkey chile verde over rice. The nihht before my some went to his Ggpas to learn how to make a turkey. Which was awesome.!! This morning i ended up making flour tortillas for our turkey verde enchiladas. Yummy if I do say so.

On to the next project. Getting myself and my newborn better from our colds. :( Keep cooking ladies or Get Your kids in the kitchen.

I must be nesting?...Wait!...What!?

Well, this morning started out with last night. I didn't make it to bed and down for the count until 2:30. I was up bright eye and bushy tailed at 5:30. Woke up my son for our Saturday right in the freezing air. Went grocery shopping and back home before anyone was out of bed. House was cleaned and I was pulling out my first batch of oatmeal cookies. How come things never taste as food as your moms cooking or you grandmothers cooking. My biys still enjoyed them. As always as they came out of the oven. And yes, I got war wounds. I burned myself :(.
Well, for now the day is half way through. Two of my cookies eaters are up from their nap. Two are cown for their nap and my oldest is at Ggpas house learning how to cook a turkey. I love cooking and am soooo happy that My fiance encourages me everyday. Love that man.
O, and I'm not pregnant. For some reason I got a lot done this morning.

Mixing the fibers

     I would have never thought that I was missing something with all the my life has found.  For Christmas my fiance registered me for a knitting class.  I guess he got tired of hearing me everytime we went ing the shop for yarn. I don't know how to knit.  I should learn one day.  Well I did.!!  The class was given by the new owner of Knit this Pearl that, in Pleasanton.  She was so patient and kind.  She told us a bit of her knitting story.  Some day.  That's all I got to say.  I knitted my first scarf and lost it once I got home.  Talk about heart breaking.  Ian(my fiance) rode out in the rain looking for it.  He's such Knight.. Well, it turned out that I did such a great job on it that one of my cats wanted it.  I'm just glad they didn't eat it..
     On to the next project...........